I don't remember where or how I met her. Or how it was we first
had sex. What I remember most is her skin.
It was sort of middle European bronze; a light, light toffee.
It seemed burnished and gave the impression of being translucent,
covering something you could almost see beneath it. It wasn't
without blemishes. There were a couple of darker birthmarks and
a mole or two but they seemed only to add to the fathomlessness.
As she would sit astride me that skin would stretch over her belly
and extend above me to her breasts.
They were one of the rules - I never touched her breasts. If
I reached up to hold or caress one she would impatiently brush
my hand away.
So there they were. Not big, not small - a little more than a
handful each, I guess. There was a seductive crease under each
of them, betraying their weight. They swayed rather than jiggled
with the rhythm of her movements. Her nipples seemed always pert,
erect, as if on guard, sniffing for danger.
I knew the rule although she had never stated it. I wasn't able
to resist, though, and each time I would try and each time she
would perfunctorily push my hands away.
That was another of the rules. No talking. Or, at least, no
unavoidable talking.
I would answer the door and she would be there. I would say Hi but she would just walk past to my bedroom. Sometimes I would
wake to find her naked, sliding under the blankets. Had my housemate
let her in, or did she come in through the window, I would wonder.
My housemate never mentioned her.
As I would follow her into my room she'd already be getting undressed
- shirt, shoes, socks, jeans, knickers. Quickly, efficiently,
as if she were at the doctor's surgery for some sort of medicine,
injection or regular therapy.
Of course, I followed her lead and also undressed. No lingering
glances or strokes, No 'how's your day been?', 'want a glass of
water?', or 'you're looking good'.
We'd slide into bed and, before I had even positioned myself or
begun to cuddle or kiss her, she'd push me on my back and straddle
me. She'd dribble some saliva onto my prick, make sure it was
evenly coated with an even rub all round the member and then ease
herself onto me.
Then she would sigh.
That was almost always her first utterance. An expression of
release. Like the first drink at the end of a long stressful
day or arrival at one's destination after a long, noisy train
trip. Just the sort of sigh I could sense she felt all the way
to her spine.
I would begin to wonder what sort of day she did have. What she
wanted to happen that night. How she wanted to feel after it.
She would begin to move. A slow, studied rise and fall as she
slid herself up and down my cock. She would push our pubic bones
against each other hard, as if she needed me further inside her
although I would feel myself against her cervix. Sometimes I
could even feel the string of her IUD.
And then up, her labia sucking at my balls, trying to pull them
into her as she let my dick come almost out.
As I watched her above me I would wonder who she was. How did
I meet her? How come I didn't even remember her name? Had I
ever known it? Why did she keep coming back? Was I that good
or was I the only person she knew who would do her this favour?
Slowly, steadily we would both slide into our orgasms. They werent
pyrotechnic, thrashing about Hollywood comings. Mine was a flushing,
like warm chocolate, flowing through my whole body.
For her I don't know. There were no pantings or screams. Just
another deep sigh, as if from her whole body.
Afterwards we would lay together, her smiling for the first time,
me wondering. And the blood.
There was always blood. And plenty of it.
All over my dick and balls, in my thatch, down my legs to my knees
and, somehow, up to my belly. And she would be the same, blood
all down her thighs and through her pubic hair. And that special
smell of blood mixed with sex, the harshness of iron against the
voluptuousness of absorption.
I never had breakfast with her. We didn't even have a coffee
together the next morning. We never discussed world politics
or the price of bread. With the dawn she would shower, thank
me and leave.
That went on for eight months. Eight fucks, ruled by the blood.
And then it stopped.
She just stopped arriving. I never saw her again. I didn't learn
her name or anything else about her except that one urgent need.
And I miss the blood. |